How do I stay safe? → How do I become more alive as I approach death?

Chapter Ten of Reimagining Rebellion. The fear under all the other fears, the question that was making me old, and the night the bar closes.

You stopped running. The thing you spent your life staying ahead of caught up, and it wasn’t an executioner, and you’re still here in the dark water with it. Chapter Ten begins there, with no time passed — and it names the thing the whole descent has been circling.

You’re going to die.

The flinch

Pay attention to what your body just did. The quick skip. Th…